Thursday, September 20, 2007

Guilt

Since getting pregnant again and coming to the realization that I will soon have two little ones under toe I have had this really crazy urge to smoother Logan with love and attention. I want to give him all new and fun things and spoil him silly. I feel like he is my favorite and I will not feel the same for this next child. I am doing all in my power to ensure he will not feel slighted or that things are taken from him when the baby arrives. It is like a secret thought I am having that Logan deserves the best of the best and the next one.......well, he can have what is left over. I know that probably all moms feel this way and that once the baby comes I will be surprised how easy it is too love them both equally. But for now I have to continue feeling this awkward guilt and protectiveness to Logan.

2 comments:

madre adoptiva said...

I know exactly how you feel. I felt the same way when I was pregnant with my second. You will be amazed at how your heart grows to encompass the amount of love you will have for both.

Anonymous said...

I know the feeling. But there is always room in your heart for more love. Its magical. You dont have to share logans love with the new baby bentley, your heart just grows new love for the new baby!
LAUREN