Guilt

Since getting pregnant again and coming to the realization that I will soon have two little ones under toe I have had this really crazy urge to smoother Logan with love and attention. I want to give him all new and fun things and spoil him silly. I feel like he is my favorite and I will not feel the same for this next child. I am doing all in my power to ensure he will not feel slighted or that things are taken from him when the baby arrives. It is like a secret thought I am having that Logan deserves the best of the best and the next one.......well, he can have what is left over. I know that probably all moms feel this way and that once the baby comes I will be surprised how easy it is too love them both equally. But for now I have to continue feeling this awkward guilt and protectiveness to Logan.