So I have been MIA a little. I am a bit overwhelmed and haven't really had a thought in my head to blog about.
Ok being honest I think I may have an anxiety issue. First I was calling it depression, sort of joking, but knew it was more about anxiety and not sadness. I don't cry, I don't sit home all day.
I am out and about all the time. I always feel like there are things that need to be done. I clench my jaws a ton. I am constantly stressing and i feel overwhelmed when things pop up and people want things from me. it is like I put on my plate the absolute most I can take with out it spilling over. With that one last extra bit I wasn't expecting I have to adjust things and stress more and almost lose it.
I had a whole work up at the dr and it all came back normal. I am contemplating trying out a small dose of anxiety meds to see if it may help.
In reality, I haven't had a full night sleep in over 2 years. Either the toddler is up with nightmares or a cold, the baby is up waking and crying or Rob is trying to grope me. It has been terrible.
This week; Landon woke up on Tuesday night at 2:00 AM crying,on Wednesday Logan woke up and stayed up from 3-4 AM, and on Thurdays Rob came home after drinking thinking I needed to wake up to give "it up" at 3:00 AM. No wonder I am a bag of shit today.